lucky 13

not much more to say...

but i really wish i could have a bagel.

so the beat goes on

11.5

had a little stall.

not sure what was going on.

sometimes its a plateau you reach for one reason or another.

but ive stayed true to the cause.

and i already feel better.

and my clothes fit a little looser.

but i have a ways to go still.

and the dryer broke yesterday.

decided it was done drying clothes.

had had its fill of servicing a family of 7.

(well, 3 now)

so wonderful.

thank you mr dryer for choosing to give up and quit.

im going back to old school top loading maytags anyway.
im done with the fancy brands and the high priced repair bills.
theres something to be said about simple.
and less.
oh, if my house could just be taken away in a tornado.
that might not be such a bad thing.

craigslist here i come.

horton hears a who

my boy dane is an actor.

he is the unlikely star of his school play.

a diamond in the rough.

and he doesnt even know how good he is, or how perfect this part is for him.

hasnt had to practice lines or was ever worried about memorization.

this is what i love about him.

his complete naivety.

and goodness.

and brilliance.

2 performances down, 4 to go...

break a leg, my boy.

well...

i hit a milestone.

im not sure why double digits matter more...

but...

need i say more?

more drums...

drumroll please...

8 down!

monkey bread temptation

i made monkey bread.

in a different pan this time.

turned out better.

and i am proud to say i didnt even try it.

was asking eden, 

"is it good?"

she said,

"yup-its good".

thats all i needed.

so i passed the temptation test.

even made oatmeal cookies last night for my crew.

but so far, didnt lose today.

ate too many strawberries, apparently,

not enough water

and splurged on a mcdonalds diet coke.

yes, im naughty.

but back on track today.

but heres the recipe for all you fatties out there.

(this includes me)

1 package frozen rhodes rolls

1 package cook and serve vanilla pudding

1 cup brown sugar

a healthy sprinkling of cinnamon

1 cube butter.

put frozen rolls in a greased 9x13 pan

(the night before-this rises overnight)

mix up dry ingredients

sprinkle over rolls.

melt cube of butter and pour over all rolls and pudding mixture

place on counter to rise overnight

in the morning you will have glorious puffy rolls...

pop them in a 350 degree oven for about 20 minutes...

THE BEST...

although i didnt try this last batch.

trust me.

theyre good.

down 2 more...

maybe this will inspire someone

and sorry dont have a picture today.

my iphoto is acting up.

so a total of 7 so far.

and counting.

down 5 and on a roll...

this public humiliation blog weight daily log idea is pretty good.

its keeping me on task.

yes, i may seem utterly self consumed and even narcissistic,

but hey, its working, im doing it.

so bear with me.

i want to be thin.

and am not getting any younger.

one day everything is going to shut down and i will be an old lady.

dont want that to happen anytime soon.

(i will be 50 this year...eee gaad!)

so.

i am doing my part.

and that means no sugar, no white stuff and 500 calories a day.

for now.

and i feel great.

i feel energized.

and i want legs like i had in high school.

(see above photo-this is high school, a million years ago...i had great legs then)

maybe i can get them back...

since they are still attached to my body,

and still fully functioning.

thank goodness.

so, heres to lots of water and chicken breast.

(and i sold the mercedes last night-yay for me!)

down 2 pounds...

and were just getting started.

didnt cheat once.

and dont intend to.

although diet coke is calling my name.

i have been able to resist so far.

and i found this on pinterest today.

and liked it a lot.

have i told you about pinterest?

my new addiction.

and way to find new internet friends.

so fun.

day one

well, really day three.

gorged for the last 2 days...

if you know the diet, this is what you are supposed to do.

dont think i will eat at another asian buffet in awhile.

so far so good.

not hungry, no diet coke and all is well.

best diet ever.

im going to be brave

(me when i was thinner than i am now...and in the jeans toby ate...rip favorite jeans)

and blog about my diet.

i have lost and gained a lot in my lifetime.

more than i care to count.

however, now it is time to lose.

all my life i have always been fairly thin...until i had kids.

then i kept a few pounds on.

until after hunter.

i was done being "pleasantly plump".

so i did it. i lost about 30 lbs.

i have come to realize i am MUCH happier when i am thin.

i am at peace when i am thin.

i can think about good things when im thin.

when im fat, all i think about is how fat i am.

and how tight my jeans are.

and how puffy my face is.

and i think i may even feel older, and wrinklier.

and i hurt more.

(it could all be in my mind).

 all this is so not productive.

SO.

i am blogging about it.

so i will have to answer to my blog.

if i cheat or fail.

none of which i will do.

because this time i am ready.

i have hit the wall.

and if you havent heard already, i have a little help.

www.yourhcg.com

this is my crutch.

and it works. really well.
i just have to stay out of restaurants and no more diet coke.
kinda tough for this girl.
but.

i will keep you posted.

in 30 days, i will be down at least 20 lbs.

there, i said it outloud, and in public.

now i will do it.
and also will start a quilt to keep me preoccupied.

66 years and counting

so this is what happened 66 years ago today.

and when i spoke to my mother this morning, 

she said she couldnt wrap her head around it.

and if they make it to 70, they will be featured in the church news.

then she said it has been hard.

and i agreed.

it is hard.

but well worth it.

and well worth the sacrifice and selflessness it requires.

because to have someone you trust by your side.

is worth its weight in gold.

and more.

happy anniversary mom and dad.

i love you.