im going to be brave

(me when i was thinner than i am now...and in the jeans toby ate...rip favorite jeans)

and blog about my diet.

i have lost and gained a lot in my lifetime.

more than i care to count.

however, now it is time to lose.

all my life i have always been fairly thin...until i had kids.

then i kept a few pounds on.

until after hunter.

i was done being "pleasantly plump".

so i did it. i lost about 30 lbs.

i have come to realize i am MUCH happier when i am thin.

i am at peace when i am thin.

i can think about good things when im thin.

when im fat, all i think about is how fat i am.

and how tight my jeans are.

and how puffy my face is.

and i think i may even feel older, and wrinklier.

and i hurt more.

(it could all be in my mind).

 all this is so not productive.

SO.

i am blogging about it.

so i will have to answer to my blog.

if i cheat or fail.

none of which i will do.

because this time i am ready.

i have hit the wall.

and if you havent heard already, i have a little help.

www.yourhcg.com

this is my crutch.

and it works. really well.
i just have to stay out of restaurants and no more diet coke.
kinda tough for this girl.
but.

i will keep you posted.

in 30 days, i will be down at least 20 lbs.

there, i said it outloud, and in public.

now i will do it.
and also will start a quilt to keep me preoccupied.